Story from Another Human

So, through my 20 years of journey, I've been heard people talking about how break ups broke them, crush them. Not because of the pain of being dumped, not by the goodbyes and finding another person, but the memories that still lingers in the corner of every spot in town, and the memories of feelings that have been felt while went through something with that one person.

So, here is how I emphasize every story that have been told to me.

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I thought I already forget you.

But here I am, clinging to memories I have of us at 2am in the morning,

My mind keep rewinding the same clip of us that one night,

Our first real conversation,

my first conversation where people I’m talking with,

truly listening.

My whole life, I talks about nothing,

And for the first time ever,

I have an audience,

Who remember every words,

Every pause between my words,

Non-sense words

Probably even,

And laugh because you know what I’m talking about.

You understand,

how sometimes I talk one thing, and other thing on the next minute,

how I sometimes forget what I’m talking about in the middle of sentences,

Then, you filled me in what my last sentences was,

Or when you sometimes guess what you think I’m trying to say was,

And suddenly it became a game of guessing.

And it feels good to be heard.

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